Wednesday, October 31, 2007
he said that he was definitely sure that someone loved him and that he was definitely sure that he loved somebody. he was laughing as he was singing. i believed every word because he doesn't lie about the lonliness. leave the word "hope" alone. it's a dumb word...you've never liked it. you are eternally impressed with everyone for only moments and let down but never hold it anywhere near their heart because it might hurt them. this hate may take a longer while to toss up into the air. finding feathers along the way, too many for a flying thing to still be flying or alive. strong perfume and brightly colored fingernails calm me down. a presence. gray swans, gray goose, this shit means something to me. you'll be okay, you're just going to be feeling sad for a little while. go ahead.