i love you with a passion that i'm never gonna know again. after a decade i wake up from a dream about you happier than i've ever been. the whole day i catch myself thinking like i'm still in the dream. we had a whole life together. i've never felt as happy as i do when i'm dreaming about you. besides the alarm nothing can touch it. i just wish i could be THAT happy every day of my life. be that happy and not have it followed by the lowest low of my life when i realise it was a dream. you're always my one wish. birthdays, shooting stars, 11:11. i don't know what the fuck to do. i love you still. i hate it. how am i supposed to think that i'm going to get over this if i havn't yet. i've tried. i swear. tried so hard. i'd say there was probably a couple months where i didn't even think about you, but i always love you. i always will.

"And for one desperate moment there
He crept back in her memory
God its so painful
Something thats so close
And still so far out of reach"

Mr. Thomas Petty